So, Monday I was admitted and even though I wanted to be mad as ever, I just took a deep breath and laughed. Now I laughed for a couple reasons honestly. For one, this ain't new. I feel like everytime I cough or blink wrong, I'm in the damn hospital (excuse my language...thats my hidden anger). Two, I really did want them to figure out what was wrong with me but I knew the ER would only do enough to check the Emergency (something I've experienced first hand and I've learned in school). Once I was admitted I knew my Nephrologist would come and actually do all he could to make sure the problem was found and solved. And three, I just had this funny feeling that they were going to keep me even though I felt like it was nothing major. I only got a little angry when they made me poop in a cup. I was so embarrassed. I was about to puke all over myself trying to scoop it from the bowl thing to the testing cup. However, it did come out of me but it was straight water (kill the visual Lord). Definitely a struggle.
So I know in your head you're like "OK Brieana, enough talking, what in the HECK happened to you?!" So, I will explain.
Well, there were TWO reasons that I was sick and even though I'm still in the hospital, I now feel much, much better.
1. My dialysis was pulling too much fluid out of me. In other words, My dialysis machine, Henry, was dialyzing so much, it pulled almost all my potassium, protein, and other nutrients that I needed in order to remain healthy.
2. For years, I've taken that one pill that is like a double-edged sword, known as PREDNISONE. Now prednisone is a steroid that suppresses the body to pretty much fight, suppress, and have some type of control over the Lupus. Everytime I take the medication, it would suppress the adrenal glands, which is responsible for producing hormones that are very vital to life, also regulating the metabolism and dealing with stress in the body. Welp, I've used it for so long that my body had gotten used to it and let's just say, my body's adrenal glands couldn't "un-suppress" itself so, I was getting sicker everyday. Crazy right?
It's like you take a drug to help one thing but it then effects something else. Life is surely intricate and that's why it's important to thank God and live everyday happy, not worrying about the things around you. I've been in the hospital so much, some of my family dont even come anymore. Its too much. But I have to do what I have to do for me. Like I always say, live life to the fullest because you just never know.
Did You Know?
An estimated 1.5 million Americans and 5 million people worldwide are living with lupus.