Some people ask me questions from time to time. A question I am CONTINUOUSLY asked is, how do you do it?
To be honest, I have NO choice. I do this because my life depends on it. Don’t get me wrong, I DO GO THROUGH. I’m going through as we speak and that is what really pushed me to write. People had been telling me that they are keeping up with my blogs and asking when will I post my next one; I had no answer. So, I decided to write today. For about the last week, I have been discouraged about it all—everything from Dialysis to just my life in general. I do understand that in this battle, times like this DO come. However, I am struggling to handle it and fight and push through. It’s like I can feel the finish line but my body and my mind is pulling me back. My mind constantly thinks and due to that I have been waking up very early. My mind is like a constant machine, thinking of things I’ve done, could’ve done, should’ve done, and shouldn’t have done. I’ve had dreams where I didn’t have Lupus or any type of disease. I had no catheter hanging out of my abdomen. No machine to hook up to every night, no doctor appointments, no nothing. However, I understand that it all happened for a reason and I do have a purpose. You do too. We influence people we don’t even think listen, but they do. Don’t worry though, my time is coming where I will bounce back better than ever. I believe it. You all stay encouraged and remember, this battle IS NOT yours (I’m really talking to myself). The hardest battles are in fact given to the strongest warriors and nothing that is done goes in vain.
Did You Know?
An estimated 1.5 million Americans and 5 million people worldwide are living with lupus.