But God.

God ALWAYS comes in clutch. 

So, much has happened to the point where I was discouraged, I began to lose focus and I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown BUT God. God just has an amazing way of getting your attention and making SURE you don't lose focus. School was getting ready to start, Orlando kept saying that they hadn't received certain documents after you sent them over 3 times, Cleveland Clinic had this long process that seem to NEVER end, and Miami just seemed to have an attitude and no type of "customer service" dignity about themselves, and my personal life was just... all over the place. So at a moment I was tired, very tired. So tired to the point where I was about to say forget it and I will just stick with dialysis and I will try it again another time. Most, if not all Lupies have a breakdown AT LEAST every 6 months. I think I feel like I have one everyday but God came in clutch this time missing nothing. When I got that call to be listed I was silent for a moment and then I began to cry. I felt like I could hear God say "all you have to do is trust me and be patient", the SAME thing my daddy would say to me when I wanted a new car. I was overjoyed and very thankful. My body was going through ups and downs and I was sure that it was going to take over a year to be listed but that wasn't in the plan. Due to dialysis I can't get in public water such as public pools, water parks and Jacuzzi. In public places like that, people urine, poop, puke, and even bleed in that water. I love MY life so on that note, I'M STRAIGHT! On top of that I can't soak in my personal tub because sitting water will get in my port and infect it. I can swim but I can be in there long and it has to be my personal pool. Only if I had one. Sounds fun right? I love water and I just can't wait until I get the surgery and I am able to enjoy what I love most. Well now, school has started and it's okay. School is never fun but healthcare fraud is something that I am really interested in. I took my first exam and I received a 100 so you know I was excited and turnt. I finally finished my process with the Cleveland Clinic (which goes before the board soon to determine if I am listed) and I decided that I didn't want to go on with the evaluation process down at Miami. I was told by one doctor of mine that Miami is a "zoo" and honestly, I want no part in that. Sometimes when things go wrong in our eyes we breakdown and feel that nothing is going right and everyone has given up on us but trust me when I say, be patient, because God is getting ready to come in clutch.