Hey you! It's been months since I have gotten here to just think, write and share. I haven't shared a post in so long so I thought that it was only right to pick it back up where I left off. Well I know the question that you may be having is "so what's up with the kidney?!" My kidney is doing great! I've been getting checkups often and so far everything is stable and healthy. And that is what I wanted to touch on this post; my kidney transplant. Now I'm not talking about all the things before a kidney transplant because I've spoken on that. I'm talking about life after a kidney transplant. I honestly thought that everything was going to change and I was going to be worry free. However, I realized it was all hype.
Now please, don't get me wrong, I am soooooo thankful for my kidney. I'm free from the tube in my abdomen and having to change the dressing on them and whatnot. Having to carry my machine everywhere I had to sleep along with all the materials was a hassle as well. However, there are things that I deal with now that I dread! When I was on dialysis, weight was NOT an issue. No matter what I ate, I would gain but working out 2-3 days a week and dialysis would pull that weight right off of me. Now! Since my kidney transplant, I've gained about 30 POUNDS, maybe more. Honestly, it's depressing. I feel hungry now more than I ever have. Before, I wasn't feeling food like that. Now I wake up in the morning thinking about what I'm going to tear up for breakfast! I ask for diet pills or something to help me lose an appetite and I get a no or a shoulder shrug. It upsets me and I feel that my weight is getting out of control.
Lets not get on medication! I take more medication now than I was taking when I was on dialysis! I take Prednisone (my enemy), Plaquenil, Cellcept, Prograf, Protonix and Bactrim. I know you're probably like WHAT ARE THOOOOSE! No worries, I will talk about those another time. Anyway, on dialysis, I took Plaquenil and another pill for a thyroid glad. That was it. Then lately, I've been having leg pains. Ya'll that have been following this journey with me know the leg pain that I am talking about but, for those who don't know, for years, I have had this pain in my leg at times that feels as if someone hit my knee with a hammer and the pain throbs through the rest of my leg, if that makes sense. Well, the pain returned and I went to the doctor to get more pain pills because sometimes it can get bad where Tylenol doesn't work. The doctor, wanted to throw another pill at me saying "take this and if the pain stops then you have restless leg syndrome and if it doesn't then we know that something is wrong". Um, do I look like a lab rat or something? I let that doctor waste his time, ink and paper because I am NOT taking another pill for ANYTHING! Doctors be so quick to through a pill at you when they can give you what you've been taking and go from there. So I just took what I had at home and that was that.
My incision where I received my kidney transplant itches and throbs of pain from time to time but that is about it. I have to do labs about once every two weeks and have to see the doctor about every two months. Like I stated in the beginning, despite all that I complained about, I am still thankful. There are people that are still on dialysis but here I am. God truly have a purpose in my life. For 6 long years, I went through complete hell with Lupus. Now things have changed and gotten so much better.
I've started working and I love my job! I remember crying and praying to God for a corporate job that I enjoyed, and where I could where my pretty business casual clothes to work and look! God has put me directly where I prayed and I am forever thankful! So many things that I've dreamed of! In a couple of months I will be graduating with my MASTERS!!! I remember dreaming it, seeing it!
I said that to say this, keep going with whatever you're doing, strive high and let no illness or life roadblock you may be facing stop you from accomplishing whatever goal you set out for yourself. Think about if I listened when people told me to stop going to school when I was working on my bachelors. Would I be where I am today if I had stopped, NOT AT ALL.
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